Faith.

There are some things that are so easy for some people to accept, and so hard for others. For example, faith and religion.  Throughout my life, I have met my match with faith. Too often I have run to faith in my time of need, desperation. And maybe that's where I'm going wrong. But it seems to be a strange reoccurence each time. I get stranded, let down, left hanging- however you'd like to word it. And that makes it so hard to keep my faith. Maybe I was destined to fail when I searched for faith while in need rather than having it all the time. But many things come through my mind. 

How could I be going through what I'm going through if there is a God?

Will things ever change?

Is this God's plan for me?