I need help.

I'm having a really rough time getting through everything. They're expecting surgery sooner, my symptoms are increasing, and the days are getting harder to get through. The depression that accompanies this, as well, is increasing. It's so hard for me to get through the days in pain, go to bed knowing I'm going to wake up in pain, and then wake up in pain the next day; it's a neverending cycle that I'm done being involved in. I have my kids to help remind me there is something to look forward to, but I feel as if I'm starting to even lose hope in that.. 

Xoxo. 

S.